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8:33 a.m. - Monday, April 11, 1005 I�m embarrassed and ashamed that I may have sounded very angry and �bitchy� when I told Boss Lady that my door was off it�s hinges. You see there was a big old refrigerator in my office all this time and I was glad to see it go but in the state of mind I was in this morning I might have sounded bitchy about my door being off. I used to never close my door but then I was told I had to because of the whole privacy/noise thing; so I got very used to being closed in my office and now I feel all naked and exposed without it being in it�s place. If I knew where the damn pins were I put it back on myself. Ohh by the way, BL knew they didn�t put them back on, she said they didn�t have time. I just want to cry. I have never felt quite this intense before, or I don�t remember it if I did. I hope I can adjust to this morning thing. I was all bummed and hated getting up this morning with a sense of dread and loss. Why?? I haven�t a clue, maybe because Kay keeps counting down the days till school is out and I won�t be there when they are home this summer or what, but whatever it is I wish it would go away. I�m going to get some stuff after work today I can�t take this horrible feeling. It�s time to start work so I guess I will that way I will occupy my mind and by lunch I will be feeling just fine. Like I tell my kids everything is a state of mind. Alrighty I�m off to begin my day.. Always remember and never forget.. if you are feeling yucky don�t go straight to the BL with a gripe/problem. |