8:43 p.m. - April Fool's Day!! 2007
Denial and New Hobbies!
It�s Sunday again and I can�t imagine if time could fly any faster!? I�ve had many random thought entries for this journal written in my mind over the last few days. Of course I can�t think of what they were about. Today was all about hanging out with hubby boy and just working on and learning more about my new hobby. You see I doomed myself at having to get a new hobby because I have said it more than once that �ohh scrapbooking is my hobby for life it is here to stay, well that and photography.� I don�t think I said anything quite that emphatic as that about crocheting, cross stitching, Pretty Punch, and latch hook among the multitudes of crafts I have tried out. I guess you could just say I �craft� for a hobby. I have to admit though that photography is by far the most expensive because I have to get new stuff!! My next purchases will be fabric and shop lights to set up a small studio in my basement to do Paul�s Sr. Photos. As we all know I can�t have great photos without scrapbooking them!!
I have however, discovered a new hobby that I have been enjoying the last few days. Digital Scrapbooking! I have made 2 and half pages� well the whole thing crashed and I hadn�t saved it so I lost it, bummer! I have gotten some free downloads of paper and embellishments to put on my digi pages. I just finished the last dl so now I can reboot and then work on that page I lost. I do enjoy it, but the only thing is I have to sit here for so long. I get my funky eyes I call them when I stare are my monitor for too long or doing close editing work on photos. It isn�t good for me to sit around because it causes me to want to eat and that is never a good idea.
Speaking of eating I�m not sure if I have mentioned that I have had some trouble over the last year or so. I�m so sad when I look at photos taken a year ago when I was much lighter. I have to participate in this �get healthy� program hubby boy has through work or we will have to pay another 1% on our health insurance. I was at risk because of my asthma but it is very very much under control right now even at my current weight, but it is my current weight that is bad for me. I had lost something like 57 lbs. and then over last summer and this winter I have gained all of it back but something like 5 lbs. This is I think due to some denial depression over Kay leaving and heading off to school. I swore up and down that I was doing just fine and that she was just fine and it was a good thing, this is what I raised her for and everything like that and wouldn�t let myself believe I was just as wimpy and weak as a friend of mine was when her kid left for school. I wasn�t going to be like that, but I was! Horribly and I got to a point where I couldn�t talk myself out of eating and I just didn�t care I didn�t care if I gained my weight back I just didn�t care. I was alright in the other aspects of my life I began teaching scrapbooking classes and working on Becky�s book but I ate and ate. I�m not sure what it was that woke me up and almost as quickly as it began I began to work and get back to counting my Weight Watchers points and really trying to do well and lose.
I have done pretty well this week, some days were harder than others but I think now I have lost almost 10 lbs. again. **big sigh** Yesterday wasn�t a very good day but today wasn�t too bad, I got most of my water in and that is a plus and I have also been setting goals and having these ladies through the �get healthy� program check in on me. My goal from last week was to walk 15 min. twice this week and I did it. Today was the last day for me to get it in but I got off my butt this evening and took a walk, I took the dog but she gets easily distracted and forgets to walk with me. I do 4 trips up and down the driveway and a walk down almost to the cemetery and back to the garage that takes about 15 min. I am proud of myself. It is a waste of their time and mine to not try to meet the goals we set. Tomorrow begins a new week.
Well my download is done and I need to reboot so this concludes today�s whine.
Always Remember and Never Forget�.everything doesn�t have to be easy, some things you just have to keep working at FOREVER!
