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10:03 p.m. - Monday, April 25, 2005 I am usually pretty good at sharing everything with my hubby boy, however I have held back a bit of information till I know for sure if it is going to happen. Remember the girl I was assistant coach too?? Tiff,,, well she is an awesome person, and I think we could work together well. She told me today after I said I am not happy about the whole full time thing that she is thinking of buying a local bridal shop. It was rather funny when she said �ohhh really?? Not working out thing huh?? Well how about a different job??� It was too cute because she was trying to be appropriately contrite and not sound happy about me looking for a new job. I think I might like,,, ohh wait didn�t I say this not long ago and how did that work out?? I could do alterations and help out in the store. I could custom make veils and such. I wonder what she could pay me?? I think I would want her to purchase a sewing machine so I could do all the alterations there. I wonder, just wonder. She also told me that she didn�t think I would make it working there from the start. She said I was too much of a people person and doing that didn�t seem like me. I am also thinking that if that didn�t work, Life Touch where I got Kay�s photos taken back in Feb. offered me a job. I just don�t know. What does God want me to do?? How can I find something I love?? Is there something wrong with me?? Why can�t I seem to hang in a job longer than a temp?? I haven�t had a real job, I have had a career in cutting hair, but the shop has been slow and I wanted more money soooo�. I took this job thinking I could do it. I just don�t know if all this anxiety and heartburn will be with me every job I take?? I did like doing alterations for the other bridal shop I worked for, the only draw back was that I always waited to do the dresses till I was stressed out and under the gun. If I do them in the shop though during store hours I think it would be better. Am I just too lazy to work at a job?? What is wrong with me?? OYYY!!! I think I will try the whole full time thing for a week and think about it! However this Friday I promised my daughter to get her out of school a little early and take her shopping down in Sharon for her prom dress, and I have to see if I can reschedule the hair appointments I have to Saturday morning. I really like doing hair for what it is worth even those annoying people that I can�t stand, I don�t know what to do� I have it when I agonize over stuff. I finally remembered this last weekend to get my garlic and St. J�s Wart and am hoping that it will help with the anxiety. It seems the only thing I am good at is being a Mom, and I�m only mediocre at being a wife but he still loves me I think! Do you think that God is telling me that I need to be a parent, do what I am good at?? OYY�. I wish I were more decisive. Alright enough about that!! I am really happy that I got all the girls books finished and Kay will deliver the rest of them tomorrow. All have to do now is mine and finish Tiffany�s. I want to make hers really nice. Well I have whiled away the evening worrying about what I am to do, so I will head off out to bed now. Always remember and never forget�Be careful what you wish for! |