How come I can’t seem to realize when I need a gag order???? How come I allow myself to say things that only an absolute self-centered, judgmental, meddling, insensitive idiot would say! I did it yesterday,,, I am going to hope to God it was hormones talking because I’m so very afraid I am that horrid person I described if it wasn’t. I was a bit outraged yesterday and it really isn’t ANY of my business!!
From the beginning….
My mother’s sister Jane, which I might have mentioned before or not, has no children and her husband has been gone a long time now. She is not a very nice person,, by this I mean she has personality “quirks” like being argumentative, and spoiled, and self-centered. Now most people who have these qualities try really hard to control them when they are young, but did you ever notice that when people get older and their brains get affected by age they lose the ability to control or just don’t care to control these “quirks.” Aunt Jane has become this way. She is in essence a 2 yr. old in a almost 90 yr. old body. She suffers from depression well at least she is on meds for it, but at any rate she won’t get out and do something so she insisted that she wanted to move to our area from Cleveland, so my sister Joyce and her husband Greg who has sorta become responsible for her built her a house and moved her to their little town about 45 min. from me. When she moved here she could drive but wouldn’t go very far. Then she had some cardiac stuff happen and it pretty much made her afraid of dying. Ok I get that but couple it with the whole I can’t control my “quirks” thing and you get this lady who will bully and cry when she feels like some wrong real or imagined has happened to her and can’t be left alone because she might die. She doesn’t want to die alone. HUMMM… maybe had she not been so horrible to her friends she would still be hanging out with them in Cleveland but she pretty much told them where to get off at one point or another so she was lonely and thought being close to use would help. She has been horribly mean to my mother who by the way has her own whole set of “quirks” that clash with Aunt Jane’s.
So her new onset of can’t be left alone has prompted Joyce to move her in with her. You see she won’t move into an assisted living program or anything like that she is “above” that! She said she wouldn’t have someone move in with her because they were strangers and that the only solution was to live with Joyce and Greg, and they told her that they would be selling her house and her things and she was fine with that now she isn’t. Well Joyce realized not real far into her living there that she was incorrigible and somewhat passive aggressive, and has the ability to drive her absolutely nuts!! I don’t know how the heck my brother Jack got roped into this,,, well I have my suspicions but well they don’t cast the nicest light on Joyce so I am going not give them voice, however somehow my brother Jack got roped into taking A. Jane one weekend a month… well that was about 3 months ago and now it is one WEEK a month. I understand Joyce needing a break but what angers me is ,,, why did she take this on when she wants to be able to go to her kids and all of them now live hours and hours away from her so when she goes she goes for many days at a time. I feel it was very very irresponsible for her to do that, or she should have told A. J. that she would have to deal with someone living in when they weren’t there and too dang bad she would have a companion type of person all the time. But you see A. J. didn’t want that so Joyce didn’t push the issue; which was stupid of her because they have to dump her on Jack and Laurie everyt ime they go out of town. Which ohh wait has been the last week in March, when Jack and Laurie were trying to move into the house (remember Laurie is Due to have her baby May 5th). Which was stressful for her then their son Burt and his wife Lindsay had a new baby just last Sat. YAY!! So now Joyce is off spending a week there now to help out with Laniey their older daughter, so Jack and Laurie have A. J. again. Not that this is bad enough Greg will come back home for a few days to do some work then head back down to get Joyce,, not really a problem but their other son Brad wants to sell his house in Maryland and needs some help getting it finished and ready to put on the market, so they are going from Burts the end of this week out to Brad’s for a week. Now did I mention Joyce has a problem having A. J. with her most of the time???? Did I also mention that Laurie is 8 ½ months pregnant???? Isn’t that what every expecting mommy wants??? A cranky set in her ways passive aggressive old woman to take care of??? I can’t believe Joyce is so damn insensitive and rude to do this to Laurie. Just because they said they would take her doesn’t mean you ask things of them that you wouldn’t want anyone to ask of you?! This just makes my blood boil.
This was all brought up yesterday by the fact that Laurie ended up in the hospital with contractions that were brought on by a really really bad bladder infection. She only has 2 ½ weeks left before her due date but she is 42 and one never knows she could go early or not. But I went down to the hospital and spend some time with her and then since my silly brother needed to get some wood in for heat he was going to go home and get some **couldn’t let the house get too cold because of A. J.** and then come back to the hospital to get her, but they ran a bag of antibiotic and sent her home so I took her home. I think I just need to hide and impose a gag order upon myself this week!!!!!!! I think Laurie has to be a better person that I because I wouldn’t be that nice that pregnant. I did tell my brother that he was to make sure they didn’t have any over night company for the first two weeks of their babies life! Laurie wants to nurse and you just can’t be comfortable if someone is hanging about.
OK end whiney mean bitching session!
I hate myself when I’m like this… grrrrrr Hey maybe I have a split personality I can separate myself…LOL Sorta like Bianccea or however you spell her name.. her show personality is called Sasha… LOL I would just be The Bitch and Mari! Too funny!! I feel horrible though to spew all that negativity around Laurie yesterday she doesn’t need that. She needs peace and serenity.
I think I need to just not go near my family!!
Always Remember and Never Forget…sometimes distance and non contact is just much better!